I'm fine

Yeah I'm fine, don't worry about me.

I didn't get the chance to call again. I guess it just wasn't meant to be.

I get upset at the most random times, mostly when I am alone.

I wonder what it was like to take that last breath before he died from cardiac arrest.

I wonder what it was like to know that your days are numbered and no one can help.

I wonder what it was like being alone without your children by your side holding your hand as you drifted away.

I have so many questions, so many unanswered questions that I need to let go of. But I can't. Not now, not yet, maybe not ever.

Too many questions, not enough answers.
Too many tears, not enough laughter.
Too many fears, not enough faith.

He's gone, and I am lost. The ironic part is, I never needed him this much until now.